a dream???

how long?????

how long must you wait before you get hitched again??
good question?
well, everyone around me keeps saying i jump into relationships, but somehow i think its unfair to only put the pressure on one person...i mean, you never know right? unless your in the relationship....how could you know how long it would take the guy to just freak out or better still..BE a freak!?? =D
serious or not, we all get blinded by a opposite sex....cos we want to feel a part of something...take that away and we just become plain old...Cynical...
sounds familiar???

new year resolutions

so the new year...pop the champaign...bring out the dancing shoes and the party hats...buy leave the resolutions for some one else to make....
i mean how many of us really keep to our new year resolutions?? if you have been one of those few..good on you!! what's the secret?
i think it;s not that we loose the will to complete the resolution- but things that happen around us change the situation so that we cant really achive them....or am i looking for excuses....well when all is said and done...the fact that i can make up my mind amidst the flowing alcohol and cheers to do something good for the year ahead i think is an achivement....=)
So here's to the new year!! to good cheer and laughter...and many more resolutions!

which month are you born in???

so im seated here, listening to my work buddy tell me what personality i must have because im born in May and the colour i like..and blah blah.....and im thinking how can a guy who doesnt know me tell me just because im born in a particular month I should be stubborn?? or love to have attention??
i guess its always good for a laugh....but then sometimes the little man inside those winney survey's does come up with some scarey realities.....
God bless those who take these silly things seriously...
I think we make who we are..i mean end of the day it's the trials and situations we face as individuals that make who we are...the person you see in the mirror is what you made...and your the only one to blame if you dont like what you see....

A dedication....

I had never heard this song, till someone special asked me to listen to the words...so this goes out the "shelter of my mind"...thank you....

I hear the drizzle of the rain
Like a memory it falls
Soft and warm continuing
Tapping on my roof and walls.

And from the shelter of my mind
Through the window of my eyes
I gaze beyond the rain-drenched streets
To England where my heart lies.

My mind's distracted and diffused
My thoughts are many miles away
They lie with you when you're asleep
And kiss you when you start your day.

And a song I was writing is left undone
I don't know why I spend my time
Writing songs I can't believe
With words that tear and strain to rhyme.

And so you see I have come to doubt
All that I once held as true
I stand alone without beliefs
The only truth I know is you.

And as I watch the drops of rain
Weave their weary paths and die
I know that I am like the rain
There but for the grace of you go I.
Kathy's song, Simon and Garfunkel

what's up DOC

I dont know what it is about me and doctors...but i just cannot stand them..of course i always thought it was ironic that one of the proposals i got was doctor!! man that would have been intresting..anyway....i never seem to have had a good expirnece with doctors,and i dont think its fair that we put such a lot of pain and waste our time standing outside a persons door, waiting to hear them tell us something we may already know..
what happend to all those doctors in ER??? like, do they ever really exist?? or is it just a way of suckering us into going to see the poor guy??
doctors and hospitals just give me the creeps...i mean, its like one of those horro movies that you just wanna get up and walk away from...
the other day i go to see the doctor, because of a bad ankle, and the doctor doesnt eveb look me in the face - and this is after going to see him after standing outside his office for like 1 1/2 hours...!!! he makes me feel like im this big time looser and then charges me for it as well...i mean why do they waste sooo many years studying if they are going to make their patients feel like they are nothing!???
or this is not a disgrunted person jabbering...just something i was thinking about seated out the doctors room...
i dont know if its that "hospital" smell, or the weird doctor or maybe its the attitude of the doctors??? but they are not COOL!....

lyrics.....in a song....

sometime the lyrics in songs just take me to another place in time, where memories lie silently waiting to pounce on me...and then reality hits....

Many years have passed since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
Among the fields of gold
Youll remember me when the west wind moves
Upon the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in his jealous sky
When we walked in the fields of gold

tick..tick...tick..

The other day I had a boering meeting with my boss, again..and while he was signing some documents I noticed his watch, in front of me...and it was one of those watches that showed the seconds...for a moment I was lost in watching the seconds ticking by...feeling...#@1#@!! I was actually watching my life ticking passed me..it made me wanna run out of there and do all those things I might not be able to...

scarey feeling..to sit in one place and watch the time pass you by...

In a falsh I could think of 10 things I needed to do...before that clock took away my time....forever...

Made me think...made me feel...and it made me wanna make the best of the rest of the day...didnt happen though...just got loaded with more work!!

well..life ticks on......10..11...12...13....14...15...