1 minute...gone...

It's true when people say...time stops for no one...

You close your eyes for a minute...... and someone still looses someone they love,a bullett will hit someone on the street, your heart will keep on beating, a wave crashes on a island shore, someone will have their heart broken by someone they loved deeply, a friend will learn something new about their best friend, a child is born and another will loose the right to live, the world around is destroyed by the same pepople who are fighting to save it, the animals around us are evolving into some new spices, someone is seated alone, a star is born and another fades away.....the list goes on....

And I will still be seated here...thinking...what happend to that minute...did I loose it...or did someone else use it...

Birthday blues.....

wish I could come up with one of those instant birthday blues songs....
...hhmm....I got the blues...I got the oh my god I'm turning 28 and I'm still living with my dad...bbluueesss....

ok maybe I should leave that to the professionals...=D

The day before my birthday, I was sooo lousy...got the pre-birthday blues and was sitting outside in the garden, thinking..thanks to Mr.Dunhill, the night seemed a little more longer...and though my companion couldnt actually speak, he kept me company till I realized that maybe I WAS all alone in the garden!

But it's intertesting how when a birthday comes calling, you tend to think about what happend during the last year of your life and how much you have changed....for me I guess the last year was a absolute roller coaster, of heart break and career changes and freinds leaving and new faces...new hearts.....

But I guess what I realized is that after 28 years of my life - I'm still learning, still falling, still surviving...and I'm damn proud of myslef!

I've lost and gained and lived...and I think end of the day, that's what matters....not how much you've lost or how much you could have done, and definitly not how much you've been hurt...but how many people in your life really love you, and how often and how hard you laugh, how often your swept off your feet by that special someone and most off all.....how much you love....

Forgive and forget...

How does one mend a broken heart?

There is this part in your heart ,I think ,once its broken can never be repaired...
I mean how do you love someone unconditonally and then be ok with them breaking the one thing that you gave them....without hesitation...your heart....

I know that everyone makes their choice and moves on with their own lives, but does that mean that you have to forgive them?or accept their decisions? forgetting is easy....forgiving...now that's another answered univesal question .....how do you forgive?

You wonder after awhile, whether it's worth thinking about it, isnt it a waste of time, to wonder whether you can ever change the way you felt, or make the other person feel the way you did the day s/he walked away from you....

How do you ever trust another person with your heart? do you even dare to?

But I guess time stops for no one, and you just got to get back on the band wagon and move on...fall again...and get up again, even if it means being alone....be taken for granted and maybe if your lucky...someday, find true love...

if it does exist.....